Friday, April 29, 2005

Dance of the Free Spirited

Was at a cousin's wedding earlier this evening. What impressed me most was the sight of children dancing. A live band was providing very danceable music the whole night and these children, about 7 of them from aged 4 to 8 started dancing rightaway. They literally danced the night away, so to speak. The girls were doing a lot of May-pole and twirling in their fairy dresses, the boys on the other hand displayed more acrobatic skills. One even break-danced to my amazement. Did he see his father's music video of Michael Jackson's Beat It, one wonders.

Why are children so carefree, spontaneous, energetic, happy, simple, courageous, willing to take risks and so real? Nothing stops them from doing what brings them joy. Not fear of embarassment, nor fear of making mistakes. Not fear of looking silly, nor fear of imperfection. Whatever happened to these children when they grow up??

Discover Your Inner World

from the book "Who am I" by Carmen Warrington........

I am autumn.

This is my time of reflection and release, for gathering and giving away. A cool change inspires me to harvest my creations and store for the future. What is unused decays, and what is not relevant is released. Change is in the air and I let go of what was, making way for what will be.

But if autumn was eternal, the sense of loss would be overwhelming; I might let go too much and be left with nothing, I need to make new plans and to create new dreams. Slowly but surely the cycle turns.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Heartaches of Motherhood

When I see my baby crying
and I know not the reason
nor how best I can ease the pain,
When I see my baby fussing of hunger
then see her vomitting in vain,
When I see my baby's temperature escallating
to make her well is beyond my means,
When I see my baby's eyes pleading
mummy, please ~
take away my discomfort and pain,
These, alas,
are the heartaches of motherhood.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

My Favourite Films

1. Life is beautiful
2. Cinema Paradiso
3. Nottinghill
4. Bridget Jones' Diary
5. You've Got Mail
6. French Kiss
7. The Thirteenth Floor
8. Breakfast At Tiffany
9. Roman Holiday
10. Indecent Proposal
11. Gone With The Wind
12. Talented Mr Ripley
13. Gattaca
14. Matrix
15. Beauty & The Beast
16. About A Boy
17. Pretty Woman
18. Love Affair
19. Somewhere In Time
20. The Bodyguard
21. The Mirror Has Two Faces
22. Green Card
23. Addicted To Love
24. Groundhog Day
25. Serendipity
26. Four Weddings and A Funeral
27. Austin Powers
28. Malena
29. Phantom Of The Opera
30. Great Expectation
31. Comrade: A Love Story
32. Sepet

Friday, April 22, 2005


Had lunch with a friend today at this cafe called Eldeweiss.

"Do you know what the flower represents?", asked Tiew.

"No", I replied.

"Eldeweiss strives well on mountain-top. Previously, when a man wanted to impress his lover on how deep his love was for her, he would climb the mountain in order to pluck her an Eldeweiss", Tiew explained.

"These days, if we guys do something like that, we'll be a laughing stock", he continued.

"No, not true. I would be impressed. Courage's a rare quality and it ranks pretty high in my list of virtue", I said.

If I Could

First heard this song in 2001 (Regina Belle's) and it touched me very deeply. Now a mother myself, am experiencing it all over again and differently too.

I dedicate this song to all the mothers I know, and especially to my very own mother, whom I know, would give me the sky if she could.

from the album Miracle by Celine Dion,
also by Regina Belle in her album, Passion

If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage in a world of compromise
Yes, I would

If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could
I would try to shield your innocence from time
But the part of life I gave you isn't mine
I've watched you grow
So I could let you go

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could

If I live
In a time and place where you don't want to be
You don't have to walk along this road with me
My yesterday
Won't have to be your way

If I knew
I'd have tried to change the world I brought to you to
And there isn't very much that I can do
But I would
If I could...
Oh baby... mummy wants to protect you
And help my baby through the hungry years
It's part of me
And if you ever... ever need
Sad shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there... I'll be there
I didn't change your world
But I would
If I Could!

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Never Let Me Go

Just finished reading Kazuo Ishiguro's Never Let Me Go. So poignant, and so powerful!! Ishiguro is really a superb story-teller. The way the plot unfolds is indeed masterful. This is one book I couldn't put down at all to the extent I kept it beside me in the car while driving in case I was stuck in a crawl and could spare some moments for a few lines. That's how absorbing it is! Definitely one of my favourites!

Friday, April 15, 2005


Zerlynde said " papamama" very clearly at dinnertime today. She had her immunisation two days ago. No tears this time, not even a whimper. Rolled a ball all over her while she was lying down just now. She shrieked with delight.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

New Home

At last, a home to call our own..... Spent the whole of last week moving into our new house in KL and then cleaning up and unpacking. With two babies around; my nephew of 15 months and our daughter of 7 months around, it's no easy task, I tell you! The horder that I was (I am?) actually had more than 70 boxes of stuff accumulated over the years! But to be fair, more than 30 of those boxes contained books, files and notes. The other boxes were full of err... CDs, DVDs, clothes, shoes, photo albums, jewellery and you know, frivolous stuffs belonging to a woman who had a soft spot for beautiful useless items......

I was at a friend's house warming party about three weeks ago. Was I impressed with her minimalism!!

Hmmm... When can I detach myself from earthly possessions??!

Friday, April 01, 2005

Favourite Books

1. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
2. When We Were Orphans - Kazuo Ishigura
3. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
4. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
5. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
6. Rebecca - Daphne du Maurier
7. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
8. The Little Prince - Antoine St Exupery
9. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
10. An Equal Music - Vikram Seth
11. And then there were none - Agatha Christie
12. The Moonstone - Wilkie Collins
13. The Great Gatsby - Scott Fitzgerald
14. Tender is the night - Scott Fitzgerald
15. Garden of Eden - Ernest Hemingway
16. The Queen and I - Sue Townsend
17. Rumpole - John Mortimer
18. Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
19. The Thorn Birds - Colleen McCullough
20. A Many Splendored Thing - Han Suyin
21. Gone with the Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. Possessions - A.S. Byatt
23. The Last Time They Met - Anita Shreve
24. The Murder of Roger Akroyd - Agatha Christie
25. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
26. If I were You - P.G. Wodehouse
27. Celestine Prophecy - James Redfield

Fans of Celestine Prophecy; Kitty, Samantha, Janice, James, check out! Don't forget my ticket to the big screen